Thursday, June 19, 2014

Of Reaping and Sowing, a Necklace

I must'v taken apart this necklace, like, at least 200 times....
No kidding.
Things came together, and then came apart.
Things fell together, and then fell back to the beginning.
I fell short of finishing,
and then fell close to tearing it apart,
and starting all over again.

I broke stuff.
Melted stuff.
Scorched stuff.
I cursed.
I almost cried.
I ran the gamut of emotions when one puts something into the universe,
and the universe just slaps it out of your hands,
and says "NOPE".
Try again.

In the last few months, I've applied some new rules to myself...
one of which is....
nothing is perfect.

As a critical and sometimes overbearingly introverted Virgo,
who sometimes takes perfection to an unhealthy and spiral-ey place.....
this is not an easy one.
Not. One. Bit.

But it has given me some peace in places in my life I least expected it.

A garden planted does not necessarily mean a good yield.
A house built doesn't necessarily make it a home.
College does not equal success.
Money does not equal happiness.
Happiness does not equal easy.
And hard work doesn't always pay.

But, at least for me....

Meaningful work matters.
The call of creative work, regardless of the outcome...

The act and propulsion of forward movement.
The work done to get there.
No looking back.
No second guessing.
Just what. it. is.

This Neckpiece is all about work...
the literal and multi-layered experience of applying yourself to your one and only life.
And for finding where that work can take you.

To reap what you sow.

For this season.
And the next one.
And the next one after....

This piece, along with many other silver-y musings from the garden,
will be in the shop Tomorrow, Friday 6/20.

xo Erin